As a writer it's what I want more than anything; for my words to matter. But often I get wrapped up in what the world says is meaningful and forget that God's idea is slightly different. Because we live in a world that says it has to matter to a million, when really it should only matter to One. But I struggle with that concept, because I see writers who have a thousand likes and shares and millions of followers. Surely their words matter more than mine? I pray about speaking Continue Reading
Time with Jesus {When You’re in the Trenches of Toddlerhood}
I was anything but intentional during those days and nights with a newborn and infant. I was in survival mode. Throwing up a prayer (more like a desperate plea for help) here and there while my Bible sat unopened on my night stand. Things got better when he became a toddler. I wasn't as sleep deprived. I wasn't as desperate. I was actually enjoying the moments instead of merely surviving them. Recently a friend (and mama of three under three) asked me how I managed to have a quiet time Continue Reading
Love Without Words {Apraxia Awareness Day}
Tomorrow is Apraxia Awareness Day, a day to advocate and educate other's about the speech disorder that steals the voices of so many kiddos; our little guy included. I guess you could say we've been on our Apraxia journey since Jackson was 18-months-old; we just didn't know what to call it back then. We knew he was behind in his expressive language, but we had no doubt he'd catch up - after all, he's a very busy little boy. And he understood everything we said to him. We started speech Continue Reading
Fixing My Eyes…
I heard Jackson sing not long ago. Of course, it was music to my ears. King and Country's Fix My Eyes was on the radio and from the back seat I heard his little voice sing "oh oh oh oh oh..." What an anthem for this journey we're on. A reminder to keep our eyes fixed on Jesus. To trust Him with Jackson's speech; because before a word is on his tongue, God knows it. (Psalm 139:4) Where we choose to place our focus is vital. Hebrews 12:2 says we should fix our eyes on Jesus, the Continue Reading
Grief Found Me…
When we got the diagnosis in January I felt a huge sense of relief. Finally! Answers to so many questions. We were certain of what I'd felt in my heart for a long time - Jackson had Childhood Apraxia of Speech. With a diagnoses in hand, I sat out to educate myself and others. I hit the ground running to make sure we were doing everything we possibly could for Jackson. What I didn't do was grieve. Last week the sadness and uncertainty nearly pulled me under. Somewhere between Continue Reading