He's been asking to go to Kindergarten all summer. We've visited his school and met his teacher. We are now eight days from the first day of school. He's pumped and I'm a big bag of mixed feelings. Last year was a difficult year. We were in a school district where kids like Jackson easily fall through the cracks. If you didn't have an Autism diagnosis or a severe disability, there wasn't really a place for you. Jackson often came across as just a behavior problem. We knew early on that the Continue Reading
Eight Things I Learned In July
I haven't published a blog post in a month! Writing has sort of taken a backseat this summer. Jackson and I are soaking in the last of these summer days and I'm trying to come to terms with the fact he's about to start Kindergarten. Where in the world did the past five years go? I feel like there will be plenty of time for writing when he's in school full-time. Right now we are going to the pool, stopping at Classic 50's for Happy Hour and taking too many trips to the toy store. July was a Continue Reading
Ten Things I Learned In June
Chigger Bites Bite There's an empty field next to our house that makes a perfect photo spot when the sun is setting. I decided to take some Fourth of July photos of Jackson and Autry when she visited earlier this month. Yep, we got some great photos; but Jackson and I also got chigger bites. Holy moly they were miserable! I've Been Mad at God As difficult as it was to write this post, it was also very freeing. I've been surprised by my anger; ashamed. But I think anger is a very normal Continue Reading
When I Finally Admitted I Was Mad at God
I've been angry at God. Yesterday, in my counselors office, I sobbed uncontrollably over Jackson's break up with PB&J. I voiced my fears and frustrations and said things I'd never say outside those four walls. She listened and then made a comment I haven't stopped thinking about. She said I'm always so transparent about motherhood. Sharing that it's both hard and holy; messy, mundane and miraculous. I don't hide the fact that it's hard. I put a lot of pressure on myself to be the Continue Reading
Nine Things I Learned in May
God Answered A Prayer (But Not Exactly How I Expected) At the beginning of PreK I began praying Jackson would find a buddy. One of my biggest fears is Jackson won't have friends. Social situations can be hard and when he's around other kids his age some of his differences are more apparent. I desperately want him to have little boys to hang out with. I've prayed about this many times (but maybe not as fervently as I should). No, Jackson doesn't have a group of boys he plays with on a regular Continue Reading