I wrote these words almost two years ago, and they came to mind as I sat in church yesterday. Going to church doesn't come easy for me. I love Jesus. I'm a Christian. I want desperately to belong. But I've believed the lie that I don't. Take my own insecurities and past hurts and add in the challenges that come with having a child with special needs, and getting to church can be difficult to say the least. Because some Sundays there are meltdowns from the parking lot to his Continue Reading
For This Very Purpose
It's not a coincidence that Jackson is my son and I'm his mama; but sometimes I forget that. Like when he's in meltdown mode in front of the school, I'm fighting back tears and feeling like a Big. Fat. Failure. It doesn't matter that I handled the previous four meltdowns like a champ. Um, you sure you've got the right girl for the job, Lord? And somewhere deep inside I sense that He really didn't make a mistake. Because God is not a God of coincidences. And in the midst of the Continue Reading
Made To Be His Mama
Last week, after 11 glorious days off, it was back to the daily grind - four weekly therapy appointments and two mornings of pre-school. The week consisted of meltdowns and sensory-related issues four out of the five days. But it was still a good week. There were still fun moments and memories made. The reason why? I'm cutting myself (and Jackson) some slack in 2016. After four years of mothering, I've finally figured out I can't do it all. When I'm busy and distracted, our Continue Reading
Ten Things I’ll Do In 2016
1. Document Our Memories Through Words and Pictures To do this, I will use the Project Life App and will follow the Project Life Week By Week method. I literally create my scrapbook pages on my phone and it's the most amazing thing EVER! I've never scrapbooked week-by-week, but I think I'm going to love it. I normally do a page for every major event (which fills at least three scrapbooks a year). I will still dedicate more space for major events, but I'm hoping to fit 2016 in one (okay, maybe Continue Reading
Eight Things I Learned In December
1. There's Nothing Like Seeing Christmas Through the Eyes of a Child It's been magical this year, simply because Jackson has been in complete wonder of it all - the lights, the tree, the gifts, Baby Jesus. He has perfected saying Santa, Ho! Ho! Ho!, reindeer and candy cane. He told us exactly what he wanted Santa to bring, which was the best Christmas gift ever! And Santa did not disappoint. He made sure to bring a train and race car. More than once I found the Wise Men and Mary and Joseph Continue Reading