This vision is for a future time. It describes the end, and it will be fulfilled. If it seems slow in coming, wait patiently, for it will surely take place. It will not be delayed. (Habakkuk 2:3 NLT) This verse refers to the end times, but it spoke so deeply to me during the days we were waiting for Jackson to speak. I remember these words coming to mind as I watched my toddler struggle to utter a single sound during a speech therapy session. These words brought me Continue Reading
I Hope He Remembers…
His entire little life has been filled with therapy appointments and overcoming obstacles. His childhood isn't how I pictured it would be. There have been many tears and frustrations. There have been more questions than answers. I've lost my patience more times than I care to admit. Life is just downright hard some days, but I hope those aren't the days he remembers most. I hope he always remembers that I jumped at the trampoline park with him. That I drew Continue Reading
My Son, My Miracle {Gotcha Day 2018}
Last Saturday I was roaming around Target. There wasn't much to do on a cold, rainy day. As I passed the toddler clothes and cute little shoes, I felt a twinge of sadness. I don't shop those little sizes anymore and the big boy clothes just aren't as fun. It seems like just yesterday that God revealed His plan for us to adopt a baby boy. I will never forget the day I held our birthmothers hand during the ultrasound - or the tears that fell when the technician announced I would have a Continue Reading
You ARE Brave (Even If You Don’t Feel It)
Looking back over my life, three very significant events qualify as brave. Leaving Texas to attend the University of Oklahoma (where I knew ONE person), deciding to adopt a child and pulling my kid out of public school to homeschool. I reached each of these decisions with shaking legs. While I had complete peace and confidence that the Lord had called me to each of them, not a single part of me felt brave. I was homesick for months after moving north of the Red River. I was up Continue Reading
Gratitude, Grief and Giving It All To God
There are two important lessons I've learned on the special needs journey. Lesson # 1 Grief is not a one time thing. The past week has been a mixture of grief and gratitude. I've once again had to grieve the way I thought things would be. I thought Jackson would go to Kindergarten. I hoped so desperately he would have his own set of amazing memories - similar to my own - from his Kindergarten year. I thought I would be a room mom and a member of the PTA. I thought we'd find a way to Continue Reading