Yesterday I didn’t check off all the things on my to-do list. Being a lover of a good to-do list, I felt a battle waging inside me.
Those things left unchecked taunted me, but a bigger part of me felt freedom.
Because I didn’t check off cleaning the guinea pig cage and working out, I got to enjoy sunshine and chats with neighbors. I watched Jackson drive his RC truck through dirt piles. I worked in the yard until dark with my husband and son. I sat on my deck and watched a glorious sunset. I fell into bed exhausted and thankful.
I don’t want to be a slave to my to-do list. It feels like a suffocating way to live life.
My devotion this morning said the list God has for us only requires two things. Love Him. Love other people.
It continued with help us let go of what everyone else is chasing.
One of the items on my to-do list that went unchecked was “working out.”
I’m guilty of chasing a smaller number on the scale and thinner hips. This race leaves me feeling chained instead of free.
No, I haven’t pushed play on my 30 minute workouts the last few days, but I’ve helped my husband shovel and haul a lot of top soil. I’ve taken walks after the rain. I’ve ridden bikes with a new friend.
I’m kind of rambling, but the reality is this – I don’t want to miss out on life because I’m afraid of leaving my list unfinished.
I want to live surrendered instead of striving.
I want to be available instead of busy.
I want to be content instead of comparing.
The world’s view of success is not the same as God’s.
He doesn’t care about unfinished to-do lists or the number on the scale.
He cares that I’m seeking Him.
He cares that I’m putting relationships before the rules I make for myself.
He cares that I’m living free; enjoying this one, amazing life He’s given me.