Today is my 39th birthday!
In 365 days I will turn the big 4-0!
How is that even possible?
I don’t feel like I’m almost 40.
I’m not dreading next year’s birthday.
You could not pay me to go back and repeat my 20s or early 30s.
This age is good.
My 38th year brought freedom.
Freedom from anxiety.
Freedom from unrealistic expectations.
Freedom from people pleasing.
Freedom from the number on the scale.
Freedom to parent and educate my child in a way that doesn’t always make sense to those on the outside looking in.
After years of trying to find my worth in all the wrong things, I finally know it can only be found in one person.
Jesus
I’ve learned that the hard moments are often holy.
I’ve learned that a simple life is good.
I’ve learned what true friendship looks like.
I’ve learned that motherhood is my purpose and it’s a privilege.
I’ve learned that I am not all the lies they wanted me to believe.
I’ve learned that God wants me to be faithful and obedient; not successful or perfect.
I’ve learned that God’s grace really is as deep as the ocean.
In 39 years God has blessed me beyond what I deserve.
I finally love who I am.
I finally grasp just how much He loves me.