Last week was a week of very high highs and some pretty sucky lows!
That pretty much describes our special needs journey – one day we’re celebrating an over the top (even better than a blue kind of day) and the next I’m Hulking out, carrying my overly anxious and upset kid out of school.
One day we’re celebrating with ice cream and the next I’m sobbing; questioning my ability to be his mom.
At the end of our roller coaster week, I finished reading Girl, Wash Your Face by Rachel Hollis.
She writes: It’s why I’ll stay hopeful even when I’m feeling weary. It’s why I’ll keep telling our story even when it’s painful to talk about. Because at the end of all this, I don’t want you to see someone who went through a long, intense process to adopt a little girl. I want you to see someone who kept showing up again and again, even when it was tearing her apart. I want you to see someone who kept walking in faith because she understood that God’s plan for her life was magnificent – even if it was never easy. And even if it wasn’t easy, she was bold and courageous and honest even when the truth was hard to share.
Yes, yes, yes!
Every word of this.
Our special needs journey is HARD!!!!
But it’s also overflowing with joy!
When it’s hard, I’ll tell the truth.
When it’s glorious, I’ll tell the truth.
I’ll be bold.
My life is magnificent, but it’s far from easy.
I’ll cry.
I’ll take a picture of my tears.
I’ll post it.
I will not hide the hard stuff.
I will not shrink back in shame.
I will be courageous!